Dear Steve, Ben and Phil,
First of all, congratulations on the DON'T BLAME THE UGLY MUG anthology. It's a milestone you all should take pride in reaching.
And once again, I'm writing you to again ask for forgiveness regarding misbehavior on my part in 2004 resulting in banishment.
At this point, I'll address people individually.
I'm sorry to have disrespected you, Steve. And I'm also very regretful it happened after a reading while most of the audience remained in the room.
Also, I owe Phil an apology for not closing my mouth and listening when he was trying to impress on me the magnitude of what happened. It was wrong of me to talk back like I did.
Of course, I'm aware of questions of "credibility" since I've petitioned publicly and privately for this banishment to end--and I've expressed disappointment and hurt when it hasn't happened.
In my defense, I'd like to restate my respect for all three of you by reminding you that I've never returned to the Ugly Mug since September of 2004. Whatever can be said, I've done my best to abide by that edict.
And it must be said that I attended the Ugly Mug between 2000 and 2004--with only the one incident of wrongful behavior to my discredit during that four-year period.
Recently, I read this statement about the Ugly Mug and the reading "They care deeply about poetry, and community, and realize the two aren't mutually exclusive."
I'd like to think that forgiveness is an integral part of all communities--especially poetry.
It's safe to say that my behavior, upon returning to Wednesday readings, would be exemplary and nondisruptive like it was between 2000 and 2004.
I very much hope we can all stop being perennially upset at each other and solidify the community that poets and business owners work so hard to achieve.